like a diamond in the rough

i have received so many emails from you guys who want to help out - and help me. i want you to know how AWESOME i think you all are and how amazing i think my "friends" list is.

as angry and sad as i am, and as hard as my situation is and is becoming, i want you to know that i don't need anything other than your words and photos - which i come to the library every night to get). even though this sucks, i am fortunate to have a little bit of help from my parents who, who knows how long they will have it, but for the time being, have some money to send my way. so as far as clothes and other thingly things, i'm sure in time i will accumualte the stuffs. and as far as things that can't be replaced - i'm working on making peace with that.

in other words - i'd MUCH rather see your thingly things go to people who need them WAY more than i.

this disaster has affected so many people on so many levels. and i feel i've walked away with too much as it is. and though my parents have some things left and some money - they don't have jobs for the time being or a place they can actually go back to for now. and my dad is in bad health as it is - so the hope is that this stress does not just overwhelm him. but he has already shown signs of wear. but in time they will re-build their lives and their business. it will just take time. years probably. but still, they have their lives and (hopefully) the means to start over.

thank you all so much. and please just keep giving in the ways that you are and can. and one day when i'm feeling better, i may just ask you to send me some pictures hahahahahahaha - cause i miss the ones that were on my walls.

love and hugs

shawn